Archive for March, 2010

HOWL: By Richard Godwin

Thursday, March 18th, 2010

LYCANTHROPY CONTESTANT

They had almost finished eating when he felt it. Like someone pulling at his sleeve, drawing him away from human company into the shadows.

Rachel leant across him, the edge of her blouse brushing his arm and she glanced briefly at him as her breast pressed against him.

“Lou, would you like more wine?” she said.

He held her gaze and knew the question that flickered briefly in her eyes and looked over at Don and saw the tired signs of a marriage that had hit sexual zero.

He read her skin like a secret map.

Outside the moon beat light into the room and a beam broke across the carpet.

“I think I’ll go,” Lou said standing.

“Bit early,” Don said.

Rachel put a hand on his shoulder.

“Yeah come on Lou.”

“You know, I’ve got things to do.”

“It’s another woman right?” Don said.

Rachel glanced in his direction.

“Shut up Don.”

“No I really must go.”

He went to use their John and it hit him. The taste of bile like rusting metal in his gut and the shadow of blood across his veiled cyanic eyes in the mirror. 

And so he left them standing on the porch staring after him.

He tried to get home knowing he didn’t have much time, not wanting them to see the change and know him, not wanting to be found out by those who dwelt in his day world, the world he tried to navigate as best he could when the sickness was not on him.

The light was now surreal and the shadows altered in the trees and he knew he was among the resident forms of darkness and their attendant feasting had begun.

And as he turned the corner the smell of flesh hit him in some avalanche of sensation and the craving was too strong.

He stopped by the bar and the murmur of voices hummed into the street and above them he heard the trill of female laughter.

He found himself among strangers who looked at him with a sullen hostility that he could taste.

“What can I get you?” the barman said.

“I’ll have a Bloody Mary.”

“Now there’s a man after my own heart.”

He looked at her.

A fading beauty with urgency in her veins, a smile that told of half forgotten pleasures, and he could see the tear marks in her skin and he could smell what it was she was thinking.

“Mirabelle,” she said, extending a hand.

“Lou.”

As he held it he felt the surge of her within him and what it was she wanted to feel and he could smell that she was fertile.

“I like the name,” she said, “get me another.”

He watched as the barman tipped tomato juice into the vodka and had to still himself, the smell was so strong. 

Mirabelle was talking but he couldn’t hear what she was saying and he noticed a guy over in the corner scowl and look away.
He wore a faded denim jacket and swigged his beer with resentment.

And resentment built in Lou.

Mirabelle was moving her mouth but all he could do was smell her.

“What do you think?” she said.

“Of what?”

‘What I was saying.”

“I think you’re on heat.”

She burst out laughing and drunkenly wagged a finger in his direction.

“Now you have a point,” she said.

The guy in the corner got up and walked out, casting a hostile glance in Mirabelle’s direction as he left.

“Know him?” Lou said.

“Ah forget him.”

He tried focusing on what she was saying but she was speaking a foreign language and he felt lost among men and hungered for the dark. 

It was too much and the blood was rushing into him in a torrent.

He stood up.

“Where you going?” Mirabelle said.

“Outside.”

“Take me with you honey.”

She stood up and staggered after him, her heels clopping on the tiles and she found him bent over breathing heavily, hands on his knees.

“Are you OK?” she said.

“Just leave me.”

“Take me somewhere nice.”

He was about to say something when he heard the bottle smash at the edge of the car park and Mirabelle turned and it was too late because it had started and he could taste the blood and he smelled the woman and the man in the denim was moving towards him with the broken glass in his hand.

“Git Mirabelle,” he said, baring his teeth at her and Lou felt it then, seeing his lips curl back.
She screamed but it was Lou she was looking at as the scream rose in her throat and he saw her run from the car park as he heard the swish of bottle in the air.

He ducked.

His attacker lost his balance and Lou grabbed him by the throat and saw the ripples of blood gather and trill there in some lunar melody and he tore his shirt from him and tasted him and defiled his body there as the light suffused the car park with some predatory glow.

And he drank of him and rose.
His mouth was awash with the fluids of the man who fell backwards now as Lou sank his teeth deep within his chest and pulled his heart from him and felt its rhythm beat against his teeth, the sharpness of razors in his mouth and some implacable hardness within him that drove him to penetrate deeper.
He held his head back until he did not move and he shook his heart from his mouth.

And then he rose his head towards the gibbous moon that lay lacerated by some trees deep in that alien sky and he howled.

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©2010 Richard Godwin

To find out more about author Richard Godwin, see his website: http://rgodwin.wordpress.com/

TO HATE THE DARKNESS: By Michael Treder

Tuesday, March 16th, 2010

It was a sad, pathetic little hotel six and one quarter miles off the main drag, a rundown old lodge with two stories, the upper of which had caught fire sixty-six years ago, and had since never been reopened to the public. Business at the hotel was slow, as was expected, and the owners, now old and fragile, did their best to keep things light and sober, but depression comes in many forms, and the old man put a gun to his temple some years ago.
 
In darkness, Leon pulled his beater car into the hotel’s gravel parking lot, and the stones beneath the well-worn tires crunched and cracked. He staggered out of the car, an ominous, painful trickle of red blood ran down his pant leg and onto the stones below, and he turned a weary eye to the distant horizon line, hardly a glimmer, and he even managed a sigh as he turned to the hotel.
 
The skeleton behind the desk, bony and gaunt, was in reality, a thin, old woman of about ninety, her white hair tied back in a tight, painful bun. With dark eyes, distant and vague, Leon signed his name, and paid the money in slow, painful steps. She closed the register and looked away without even a hint of acknowledgement. His key was slid to him across the counter by her thin, needle-like fingers.
 
And Leon climbed the stairs dragging, his near useless leg behind, breathing heavily as he went.
 
His room was the first door on his left and he struggled with the latch because the key stuck from lack of use, but eventfully it opened once he put his weight into it, and it swung him into the room. He bit down so as not to cry out from the pain in his leg, and the door closed shut tight behind him.
 
The light in the room blinded him only temporarily, and his head began to hurt from the fake yellow glow of the light bulb, and over the lampshade he threw his coat, dulling the luminance immensely.
 
He gazed around the room, still squinting though the bedside lamp barely gave off a glow. His head pounded and even the shadows seemed too bright. The small room seemed no larger than a closet, a single bed pushed aside, a coffee-stained table and a toilet that sweat, leaving a cold, disgusting puddle on the green tile floor in the bathroom. It was a simple room, and he didn’t need much, his was a superficial existence. A last private sanctuary.
 
The 30-year-old wallpaper, as old as he was, the insect covered fly-paper hanging from the ceiling in the corner, and a miserable streaked window that faced east, it was as if it were meant to be. As if God himself had finally looked down upon the earth, and handpicked the little man, and said, “Tonight, I will make this man’s dreams come true.”
 
Leon couldn’t help but notice the sad irony. All his life, he’d fought, and scratched, and worked so Goddamned hard, worked his bloody fingers to the bone, and had never once received a lick, not once had things gone his way, had the stars ever aligned for him. But tonight, a night which would probably be his last night on earth, tonight things just seemed to click.
 
He should laughed, instead he threw up.
 
He already began to feel the changes in his body, the way he moved, the way his feet shuffled against the floor in half steps and his obvious reaction to light. He felt weaker, his bones hurt, his head spun, and his skin felt cool and clammy to the touch.
 
He stepped into the bathroom, small and crowded, a layer of mould along the beige tile of the wall in the corner behind the toilet, and he gazed at his faded reflection in the streaked mirror. He seemed so distant, out of body, like a copy of his former self. Like a sad, sorry alter ego.
 
Leon shuddered, his breath painful and short, and his eyes, now beady and sunken, darted towards the bloody wound in his throat. Hours ago, he had wrapped an old white sock with tape to stop the bleeding, but the sock was now a deep red and stained and a trail of blood ran down his neck and into his shirt, down his busted leg, down to the floor.
 
He ripped a hotel hand towel and applied pressure again to the wound, the pain was nauseating, his mind numb. He stepped back into the room, his head pounding, the light excruciating. He needed to sit down, he needed to relax, Leon needed to think.
 
But thoughts would not come; only memories, only sad, twisted memories.
 
How many had there been? Three? Four? Had there really only been one? His mind blurred, a jumble of misinformation, of misfiring synapses. He supposed that one was all it took. Pale and ugly, like a bat, or a human-like mole, wrinkly and gaunt, like the proverbial creature of the night he was. “Goddamned vampires,” he thought, “Goddamned mother-sucking vampires.”
 
And then he laughed, and there was nothing left to throw up.
 
He felt his body grow weaker, more tired, and the pain in his limbs was severe and it took all his strength to stand, and reach for the thin, rather transparent curtains, which he pulled aside. Far off in the distance, beyond the hills, Leon could see the first glimmer of sun peak over the horizon line, peak over the crest of the earth.
 
And Leon sunk back down onto the bed to wait, to await his chosen fate. “Not me,” he thought, “not me.” 
 
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©2010 Michael Treader


Michael Treder’s short tales of fiction have appeared in several issues of Quantum Muse and in the Cynic Online Magazine. He currently lives in Montreal.
 
http://www.michaeltreder.blogspot.com