THIS HEAT CANNOT BE KILLED By: Wayne Goodchild
Tuesday, March 3rd, 2009He wakes up.
Something is dragging itself along his bedroom floor. Something wet and small. Something red and glistening.
A thin shard of dusty moonlight slices through a gap in the curtains, falling across the floorboards like a wound in the darkness. It almost reaches across to the bedroom door, which is open only a couple of inches. There is nothing in the room to intercept the moonlight, except for his iron-railed bed, and this sits against the wall furthest from the door.
The sound of tiny nails scrapes, scrapes, closer. He can’t tell if he’s sweating due to fear or the heat. Without giving it too much thought, he sits up and looks across his room. Whatever was there, is now gone. Wiping sweat from his chin with a clammy forearm, he sits breathing heavily. He has no idea what time it is, or even what day. How long has he been sleeping?
Slipping out of bed, he welcomes the cool hard touch of the wooden floor. The air seems to be heavy with dust, pressing down on his chest and pushing against the sides of his head. He takes a number of slow, steady breaths, using the thin duvet to wipe more sweat from his face and body.
After a few moments he gets up, taking a few steps towards the window. Perhaps he’ll feel better with it open. Pulling the curtains aside, he stands there, semi-naked, facing out on the street. But the houses across the road are silenced by the night and hidden by the rain. He didn’t even realise it’d been raining. He touches the radiator under the sill. It’s stone cold. Why is the house so fucking hot?
He casts his gaze down upon his front lawn. The mushroom’s there, in the far corner next to the brick wall that separates the house from the street. It’s small but white enough to stand out against the wet grass. He can’t remember exactly how long it’d been growing there. He doesn’t think he even saw it growing; it probably just appeared. He remembers sitting in the living room watching television, and noticing from the corner of his eye, this mushroom. It’s white but covered in flaking skin, a bulbous head sat atop a squat veiny body. He’s never seen a mushroom like it before, but he knows there’s something inherently wrong with it. It shouldn’t be there. It should be dead. No birds peck at it, no bugs crawl along its unhealthy surface. He can’t sit in the living room now without watching it. It’s almost as if he’s waiting for it to spread, to grow pallid babies from its base.
Sweat runs into his left eye, the salty sting causing him to shake the memory from his mind. Pressing his forehead against the glass that’s been cooled by the rain, he sees what’s covering the edges of the window. Patches of milky lichen, their centres a dark grey, cling in frilled lumps along both the left and right sides of his bedroom window. Each piece is roughly the size of the palm of his hand, and pulses slightly, just slightly. He instinctively knows this growth has consumed all the downstairs windows, just as he senses a bloated white worm with a shiny black maggot’s head throbbing through parts of the house. It’s sickly bulk makes a muted wet crunching sound as it constricts it’s innards with each movement, releasing them as it’s body concertinas forwards.
He turns from the window, all thoughts of opening it to embrace the cold night air abandoned. He stares at his bedroom door. Is there something moving around behind it, peeking inquisitively through the gap as it sits slightly ajar? A small hallway’s beyond it, with a tiny spare bedroom to the immediate left, a bathroom ahead, and two more bedrooms on the right. Separating his bedroom from the next one along on the right, are the stairs, descending between picture-less walls towards the front door.
He turns from the stairs and enters the bathroom. The cold tap on the sink turns easily, gushing out a heavy stream of water. He bends down, cocking his head to the side so as to drink. The water feels warm in his mouth, and he spits it out. Rubbing his mouth with the back of his hand he looks for a moment at the frosted glass of the bathroom window. Blurred dark shapes throb slightly along the edges outside.
Stepping back out onto the landing, he briefly wonders why he’s still in this house. Miscellaneous junk fills the tiny spare bedroom, and he can’t even remember what’s in the other two; he has no real need to go in them anymore. A sound from downstairs attracts his attention.
Stood at the head of the stairs, his body dripping and pulsating with heat, he looks towards the bottom. The front door’s less than a metre from the base, with a door on the left of the stairs leading to the living room, a door on the right leading to the kitchen.
Vague blue moonlight filters through the patterned glass in the middle of the front door, seemingly hovering a few feet above the actual floor. The stairs themselves also seemingly end a few feet above where they normally would. A dry sighing sound, almost like leather rubbing softly against itself, echoes up the stairs. It’s constant and follows the shift of the moonlight as it highlights the mass of tiny writhing bodies that have flooded the downstairs of his house. He starts to take steps towards them, realising it’s a sea of maggots.
Sweat pools in his left ear, curves around his right eye and tickles his upper gum, drips onto his tongue as he licks his cracked lips, slides down the inside of his pyjama leg, sticking the light fabric to his skin.
The house is filled with a darkness like hot dust as he descends the steps.
Closer, closer.
He can’t remember if he walks into the sea or falls in, but it doesn’t really matter anymore.
It doesn’t matter at all.
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©2009 Wayne Goodchild